Happy New Year, Sis!
I hope you all had a marvelous Holiday Season and are feeling refreshed and ready to take 2020 by storm!
I was totally amped up going into this new decade, I just knew this was going to be the best one yet.
I’m not going to even front, though.
My New Year felt pretty anticlimactic, and it bummed me out for a while.
Growing up as a church girl, I always brought in the New Year at the Watch Night services.
And most times, it was the most boring thing ever. (I’m such a heathen, I know.)
I will say that the church I’ve been to with my mom is very fun, and easy to get into, however…
It’s still church, and I just wanted something different.
This is why a few months back, I began making plans with my boyfriend, one of my best friends, and her boyfriend.
Amber (hey bestie) and I wanted to go ahead and establish plans because we both know from experience that last minute planning usually falls though, especially with POC.
So, we start throwing out ideas and sending things to our boyfriends, expecting them to give good feedback and converse amongst themselves, especially because they’re good friends as well.
Wrong!
No shade, but never give any responsibility in planning stuff like this to a man.
“That’s straight”, “I don’t want to do that, but I don’t have no other ideas”, or just “Nah” is what the responses consisted of.
So, any sort of plans that we had tried to solidify didn’t come to pass, unfortunately.
Okay fine, no couple’s night.
Cool, I at least can do something with bae.
Wrong!
I found out that he wouldn’t be able to come into town to bring in the decade. (We’re long-distance).
And, y’all.
Talk about upset!
This would’ve been my FIRST New Year’s kiss, I was hype!
But he had a legitimate reason, so I couldn’t be mad at him.
I figured I would just do something with friends.
Wrong!
All of them either already had plans or couldn’t meet up in time.
So back to church it was for me.
I felt so defeated because I had been talking so much about how 2020 would be the year of manifestation, so I wanted to bring in this new year differently to coincide with that declaration, but it wasn’t happening.
Or at least that was my jaded view of the situation.
Honestly, that was such an ignorant attitude to have because it prompted the negative side of this supposed theme I was going for.
Merriam-Webster dictionary defines manifestation as “a public demonstration of power and purpose”.
I absolutely LOVE this definition; however, I don’t think manifestation has to be done in a public manner, nor does the term “demonstration” really embody the verb I’m looking for.
So, I’m going to tweak things up a little bit.
Manifestation is a declaration of power and purpose.
Now, nowhere in that definition did it mention anything about a setting.
Why did I place so much power in how my year was going to turn out based on where I brought it in?
The magic in manifesting is that your current placement holds no weight in the declaration of your future.
My New Year’s could’ve been whatever I made it.
And I made it an anticlimactic event.
I manifested an anticlimactic New Years.
In fact, it was intentional manifestation.
That means I deliberated declared negativity upon myself.
The power of the tongue is a powerful thing, y’all.
So, an uneventful New Year’s comes and goes, and I’m still sulking as the days pass by.
And then an epiphany of sorts hits me while I’m at home on the couch.
My life is what is make it.
I would have preferred to bring in the New Year a different way, sure, but I held the power to control the narrative of my experience with the cards I was dealt.
And even though I screwed myself over on NYE, there was still time to change my attitude for the duration of 2020.
So, I decided to add an “intentional” in front of the “manifestation” on my vision board and start putting some things into action.
The next day while listening to the message at church, the head Pastor said something that made my ears perk all the way up.
“You have to be intentional with your manifestations.”
Whew chile, the ALIGNMENT!
That was all the confirmation I needed to know I was exactly where I needed to be.
Since then, whilst acting in my intentional manifestations, I have invested in a new branch of TMP, I’ve started meal prepping and working out, and made some pretty dope connections with people I admire.
This all happened within the one week, by the way.
And if I can accomplish all that in under seven days, I can’t wait to see what all milestones I’ll reach by December 31st.
Intentional Manifestation: where our aspirations become our victories.
Let’s get to work, shall we?